3rd Entry

Hello. I've just entered the library in Beverly Hills to post another entry. I had somewhere to stay last night, the same place I've been staying for the last week. We talked last night regarding my situation. He expressed sympathy and worry. His experiences with his kindness have led him to grief in the past. I assured him that I was neither an alcoholic or drug addict. He responded by saying that I must have strong character to be able to suppress those urges. Unfortunately, most people in my situation will see no other way around it. They give in to the sexual and psychological urges of escape. I will admit, if I was not staying there at his place, I would be at some bar in the West Hollywood area looking for company and accepting whatever was offered to me. I will be posting a picture some time this weekend of myself.

2nd Entry

This is my second entry. It is a Wednesday in Los Angeles and rainstorm prevented me from posting a blog yesterday, Tuesday. I, from time to time, walk the streets of L.A. to see who I meet. I met an interesting person Monday night who is giving me a place to stay. He lives in a studio in Hollywood. I stayed with him Monday night and last night. I suppose I will be staying with him tonight. What does he want in return? I don't know. Intriguing indeed. I went to the Department of Public Social Services in West L.A. today. It's a place where you get General Relief and Food Stamps. They also assist you in getting a job. I had originally applied for these government benefits nine months ago. Without a place to live though, it is difficult to pursue gainful employment of some sort. Nine months later, I am still struggling. Why? I wasn't stabilized. There are SRO's (single room occupancy units) located in downtown L.A. where I could've been staying but I didn't find out about these accommodations until it was too late. I found out today I will have to reapply for these particular benefits. These programs, I believe, are worth participating in but you must do research, I've learned, in order to take full advantage. I will be posting a photo of myself soon. I would like to share with the public my experiences because I believe people should know what is going on in society today with people my age.

Today is the first day on this website. I am thoroughly excited. I am doing this as a project, to share my daily experiences with the public. Hopefully, it will be an enriching experience. Everything I write will be a truthful depiction of my daily activities in Los Angeles. I am currently going through the tremendous task of finding affordable housing in the city of Los Angeles which is part of a self-assessment. I am 29 years old and have been here in L.A. for a year. I was born and raised in New York City during the seventies. My father left the family early in my life, so my mother raised me and my sister by herself. I didn't have much of an idea of what career to pursue until recently. Early in my life growing up as a child, I was taunted in school and at home. It lead me on a path usually followed by other young males or females lead astray. On the streets, trying to survive, looking for love, answers and absorbing everything while learning with astonishment. For ten years ( I am now 29), I have been lost in a sea of people with one thing in mind. ' What to do with myself?' issues came up: housing, friends, love, money, etc. Leaving New York at the age of 18, I came to L.A. without a clue what to do. I did not know the problems I was about to face but knew they were a result of a poor upbringing. I struggled for a few years, finally giving in and returning to New York . After a few years there, I was a little more experienced and knew more about myself but was not ready. There was no direction or determination, I was not in the right mindset. I went back to L.A. last year and revelation occurred through people I met. Still finding myself lost, I began to look for reasons which forced me to look at the social dynamic. When pursuing housing as an unprivileged person of society, there is little power to wield. I do have to go and will publish this today. I will be writing entries everyday.